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I just had to share with you want I read this morning out of a book my sister-in-law got me for Christmas.
I have been struggling a bunch with where I should be spiritually, if I am who God wants me to be, if I am really walking with him etc. This chapter really spoke to that.
In this chapter she quoted:
“Do you know the story of Rabbi Zusya?” he asked. “He was a Chasidic master who lived in the 1700s. One day he asked, “When I get to the heavenly court, God will not ask me, Why weren’t you Moses?” Rather he will ask me, “Why were you not Zusya?” – Chasing Francis: A Pilgrims Tale
Apart from the fact that this guy had a really weird name the truth in it is awesome. God is not going to ask us why we weren’t more like someone else. Instead he created us all separately and expects us to be who He made us to be.
Instead of thinking I need to have a prayer life like David, a speaking ability like Paul, an influence like Moses, and a faith like Abraham I need to have the prayer, speaking, influence and faith like me.
Angie went on to say that there will be no comparisons when we get to heaven. We won’t be competing against each other on who memorized the most or who can find scripture the fastest.
I get so caught up on the fact that I don’t measure up to these ideals in biblical characters or other spiritual people around me that I get stressed and feel guilty.
I do need to be closer to God. It is a lifelong journey that will end long before I become as close as I would like, but my experience with God will be unique.
The way I pray, the way I speak, the way I parent, how much I understand, the way God speaks to me, and much more is all unique to me. I can be growing and living the way God wants even if it doesn’t compare to someone else I might look up to.
A note on the way God speaks. I love how Blackaby brings out that God speaks through the Bible, prayer, the church, and circumstance. God had asked people to do some strange things in the past (Abraham in Genesis 22) but when God asked people to do something that weird they were already experienced in hearing his voice. If God tells you to do something by one of these 4 areas it should be confirmed by the other 3. … this weeds out the strange voices in someones head that tell them to murder children.. this wouldn’t be confirmed by the Bible, or the church.
It isn’t that I believe in comparing or believe I have to be good to be saved, it is the human habit of always comparing ourselves with others and thinking we should be more like them. I never consciously thought that God was going to compare me to Moses or Paul, but in my head I was doing the compassion… and coming up short…
Really letting my head knowledge of Gods love for my individuality sink into my thinking is so freeing. …really it shouldn’t be so hard, but the whole idea really hit me reading this morning.
I hope it can help you as well. I wish you a wonderful day and a great weekend. I am just starting the Mended book, but I am loving it. If you are looking for a new book for a devotional aid I recommend it 🙂