What If I’m Not Chosen

February 8, 2012 in Simple Religion

Our Bible study group at church is reading through Romans and it has been awesome.  A few weeks ago we hit one of the doozy chapters in Romans 9 and had some great discussion. How does predestination fit into simple religion?  How can I find God and see God in this complicated passage.

If you are new here to Loving Simple Living (Welcome, so glad you are here!) there are several different topics that I write about that fit under Simple Living and Minimalism.  I want to live intentionally, simply, and on purpose in all areas of my life.  I am a Christian and want that to be an intentional part of who I am instead of just a group I am part of.

So, here is the text:

14 (AC)What shall we say then? (AD)There is no injustice with God, is there? (AE)May it never be! 15 For He says to Moses, “(AF)I WILL HAVE MERCY ON WHOM I HAVE MERCY, AND I WILL HAVE COMPASSION ON WHOM I HAVE COMPASSION.” 16 So then it does not depend on the man who wills or the man who (AG)runs, but on (AH)God who has mercy. 17 For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, “(AI)FOR THIS VERY PURPOSE I RAISED YOU UP, TO DEMONSTRATE MY POWER IN YOU, AND THAT MY NAME MIGHT BE PROCLAIMED [k]THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EARTH.” 18 So then He has mercy on whom He desires, and He (AJ)hardens whom He desires. Romans 9:14-18 Source

This is tough stuff.  Does God just save whoever he wants?  Do we not have a choice?  I would love to say that I could know I would be chosen for the right side, but what comes to my mind is – what if I am not chosen to receive mercy?  This makes it sound like God is a just a chess player sitting up in the sky moving people around and doing with them whatever He wants.  Now, I believe that God is big enough and able to do whatever He wants and that he has the right (he made us), but I also believe in free choice and this text seems to go against it.  If there are only some chosen than how do I know if I am?  If I don’t know, does it mean I am not chosen and should just ‘throw in the towel’ on the whole thing?

Because I believe God is bigger than me and, then, the Bible also is bigger than me, I believe that what looks like contradiction is a place for deeper truths.  If I could understand it all at the age of 31 without a religion degree then God wouldn’t be worth following.

But, lets look at this and figure out what we can.

First, Paul has spent a bunch of time talking about how everyone Jews and Greeks are sinful (Rom 1 and 2).  Leading up to the quoted text of Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned and fall short of the  glory of God”  nobody is worthy.  Then continuing on Romans 3:24 “and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus”.

Everybody sucks, no one is worthy.  The only chance anyone has is the grace of God.  These are universal statements.  Just like John 3:16 “God so loved the world… that whoever believes…” and 1 Timothy 2:4 “who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth”

So salvation isn’t earned by anybody, but is open to everybody.

So with the text, God is just like it says.  He does chose to show mercy and compassion and, as stated clearly through the Bible, He shows it to everyone.

Second, God wants all men to be saved, but not everyone is saved.  There will be the saved and the un-saved (Matthew 25 all three parables).  If God chooses everyone and not everyone will be saved, than there is also a choice on our side.

So what about the hardening of Pharaohs heart?  Who did that?

It is interesting when you search for Pharaoh’s heart in the concordance (this is the online one I am using) that there is several different ways it is stated.  Pharaoh’s heart was definitely hard, it says that all the time.  However, sometimes it says God hardened, sometimes it just says it was hard as God had said, and sometimes it says that Pharaoh hardened his heart.

The pastor had a really good metaphor that seemed to make all of this make more sense.  If the sun shines on a piece of wax or a piece of clay what happens?  The wax melts and the clay hardens.   Same sun.  With no sun would that have happened.  Nope.  So does the sun harden or soften?  Clearly the sun does both right?  The sun is to blame.

In Romans 2:4 it says “… that God’s kindness leads you toward repentance?” So God is showing love, kindness, mercy, and grace to everyone/the whole world but it is how we receive it that makes the difference.   For Pharaoh, looking at it this way, it could be said that God hardened, he hardened, or the heart was hard.  All are true.

It is hard to wrap my mind around the fact that God is all-knowing but still has patience to offer choices.  He knows who will choose Him in the end.  He knew from the beginning that Judas was going to betray Him.  Why did he pick Judas? Why does he pick anyone if He knows their final decision won’t be for Him.  Doesn’t make sense in my mind at all. .. but I am not all-knowing and I am not all-loving.

In the big picture of the Bible there is God creating people, people screwing up, God making a plan to save people, and a promise of God coming back to make everything right in the end.  These are the big picture in the Bible and the big pictures in Romans.  I believe Paul was using the term chosen a lot in his book because he was writing to a mix of Jews and Gentiles and the Jews strongly believed they were chosen.  Chosen was a big deal to them.  They were chosen, it is the story of most of the Old Testament.  They were chosen to demonstrate Gods love and show it to the world.  The story of the Jewish nation as a messed up child leaving God and coming back over and over and over again is a great demonstration of the love of God.   Chosen for a role to play in salvation isn’t the same as being chosen for salvation.  

So there is still great news in this verse!

God is all powerful and all knowing and still chooses us. Opening our heart up to God makes all the difference no matter who we are or what we have done.  We have the choice to soften to Him and allow Him to work or run and harden to His voice.

Thanks for reading.  I am not a theologian, pastor, or teacher.  Just a student of the word trying to learn and grow.

Don’t Mess With Me

January 18, 2012 in Simple Religion

This is a shot my husband got of me this past weekend.  He has been working on close up photography and editing so I get practiced on a lot :)

Value sadly is in short supply.  Too often people don’t see their value, or the value in others…..or they have one and not the other.  Self-esteem, self-respect, caring, and compassion come from a healthy understanding of value.  Simple minimalist living has got to start in the soul and value is so important.

In November I read a book called Spiritual Parenting: An Awakening for Today’s Families by Michelle Anthony.  It was a great book on helping kids grow in a relationship with God instead of just worrying about their behavior.  What really jumped at me from the book was this quote I wanted to share with you.

She wrote it with her name, I have inserted my name, you can change it to your name…. you get the drill. This is based on Ephesians 1

“My name is Lorilee Lippincott.  I am the chosen and adopted daughter of the Most High King.  I’m the heir to an eternal inheritance waiting for me in heaven.  I have been bought and completely paid for by the perfect sacrifice of Christ’s own blood and am sealed throughout all eternity by God’s Holy Spirit.  Don’t mess with me!” Spiritual Parenting by Michelle Anthony

Isn’t this awesome! It has punch and power to it.  It screams value.  I need to post it on the mirror, repeat it to the kids, and live like I believe it.

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“So Don’t Waste It Living Someone Else’s Life”

November 9, 2011 in Simple Religion

I love this quote and wanted to share it.  This fits so well with the theme and idea of the site.

Intentional Living

So many people go through life taking the easy path, not thinking of or seeing options.  Some go through life trying to meet someones expectations of them.  Others go through life trying to impress someone else.  All these paths are ‘living someone else’s life’.  We are all different.  I want for you and I to love and allow those differences to show and grow.  To celebrate those differences and be able to enjoy each other for, and with them.

No one can dictate what your living should be.  (apart from the Bible and some basic societal rules…. if you get my drift )

Simple Spirituality

It struck me as I was reading The Purpose Driven Life (Day 31) this morning how this applies to our spiritual life as well.   God made us all different for a reason.  We have different passions, different talents, different experiences, and different hurts. All these can be used for the benefit of others and the church.  The last thing God wants is for us to try to fit a mold for Him or anyone else.

I like to think of the parable of the 10 talents in Matthew 25:14-30.  The talents are like my life.  It isn’t ‘my’ life, but it is the only ‘one life’ I am being put in charge of.  I am responsible to make the most of it with all I can learn, and all I can figure out.  I refuse to take other people’s paths, or other people’s ideals, or the easy way.  It is just plain irresponsible use of my life.

When the master gave out the talents in this parable it was the end result that mattered much more than the process.  The first two servants doubled their talents, but it doesn’t say they did it in the same way.  They were both smart and worked at making the most of what they were given.

It is hard sometimes to feel that my life is really that spiritual if I am not in full time ministry.  I have thought a bunch about this lately and have been learning that my job and what I do is not near as important to God as who I am.  What I do is much easier for me to focus on because it is tangible and easy, but my character, how I think, and where my focus lies is more important to Him.

Exciting!

This quote and these ideas are exciting to me.  I want to live ‘my life’.  I struggle with what others think, but I am growing to be O.K. with that.  This blog was a huge step for me.  I wanted to be honest with myself about who I am and what I think and really clarify it in type.  Keeping up with it has been a great way to keep me accountable.

Thanks for coming along!

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Present In Worship, Now In Service

October 19, 2011 in Simple Religion

For this post I wanted to get pictures of our feet representing how we need to focus on where we are at presently.  I love these shoes of Lily’s.  It was cold and getting dark so she wouldn’t take off her socks like I wanted.

I am excited to write this post.  This is something that God has probably been trying to teach me for years, but it is only now that I am really ready to understand and rest in it.

I want to work for God.  I want to make a difference in my world.  I have spent most of my adult life trying to figure out how I can achieve this.  As a family we have looked at lots of mission calls, and lots of ‘mission’ jobs here at home.  I read about people helping orphans or doing relief work and I want to be part of it.  

My boy will take off his shoes and socks and play in the grass no matter how cold it is outside :)

For all these years it has never worked out.  I am ok with that and assume God has something else we are supposed to do, but I am always looking, always wanting the ‘change’ to ‘true’ service for God.  I completely understand that my family and my kids are my ministry, but there is so much pain and hurt in the world I want to try and help.

 The problem with always looking for ‘the call’ is that I am living in the future. I am focused on what I could do, or what I might be called to do, and everything I am doing now has just been a time filler till something else. 

What I have discovered is that this is dangerous for both my sanity and simplicity, as well as my position and relationship with God. 

My husband never takes off his shoes, here he is standing on the slide at the park.  Thanks for playing along baby!

A quote I read years ago in Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing the Will of God, Revised and Expandedsaid (something close to)

A common saying in our culture is ‘Don’t just stand there, do something’.  God however calls us to ‘Don’t just do something, stand there and focus on me’

We try so hard to work for God that we don’t have a chance to know God.  And, if we don’t know Him, how can we really know what He wants us to do? 

We learn about God, and we grow to want to serve Him, but all to often, we jump from one to the other without getting to know Him in the middle.  Once we fill our life with lots of ‘good-God-work’ we don’t have the time to ‘Be still, and know that I am God’ Ps 46:10

Here are my feet with my home-done toes.  I love red!  Usually looks better from a distance… up close they look pretty messy.

So What Does It All Mean?

Our society has us living in the future… when I get past this busy time at work…. after the kids get potty trained…. after I get at least one good night sleep…. when I am finally out of debt…., and I was taking the same problem to my spiritual life. 

We have to live in the present.  Live in the present with our kids, our finances, our life, and our God. It is a simple law of biology and physics, there is only mental energy and time for the present. 

God wants my worship and service today, maybe just this hour or this minute.  It isn’t that we shouldn’t wish to make a difference for Him, it is that we need to focus on what He wants us to do now. 

I found this poem yesterday from SAINT AUGUSTINE’S PRAYER BOOK: A BOOK OF DEVOTION FOR MEMBERS OF THE EPISCOPAL CHURCH:

Just For Today

Lord, for tomorrow and its needs, I do not pray;
Keep me, my God, from stain and sin,
Just for today.

Let me both diligently work and duly pray.
Let me be kind in word and deed,
Just for today.

Let me be slow to do my will, prompt to obey;
Help me sacrifice myself,
Just for today

And if today my tide of life should ebb away;
Give me thy Sacraments divine,
Sweet Lord, today.

So for tomorrow and its need I do not pray,
But keep me, guide me, love me, Lord,
Just for today.

Today is all I need to worry about.  With Gods strength and guidance I can do, and be, what He wants me to be ‘just for today.’

 

 

Some Simple Perspective

October 12, 2011 in Simple Religion

I have been reminded from everywhere lately.  Books, worship, other blogs, friends.  What really matters?  I want to simplify my life, and I am working at it and praying for it, but I get stressed out easily.

  • Kids waking up to early and making lots of noise
  • Figuring out balanced, healthy food my kids (or hubby) will eat
  • Not starting school on time
  • Not having school planed for the day as much as I would like
  • Kids goofing off and not working on school work
  • Messy house
  • Computer not working
  • Husband getting home late
  • Kids fighting
  • Guilt over loosing my patience and frustration with not being able to ‘grow’ some

It is so easy to get wrapped up in all the stress-mess and end up hanging on the edge of a breakdown.  But, what keeps hitting me over and over the last few weeks is perspective.  What really matters.  I wanted to write out some basic life perspectives that I have been learning.

I suck, you suck, we all suck

All those kids on the playground were right.  The Bible tells us we all suck.  Romans 3:23.  We don’t even know what ‘not-sucking’ looks like or how to get there.  ……The good part for those struggling with self-esteem is that everybody sucks.  We all suck bad, but we all suck just as bad :)  

God loves us even though we suck

The craziest concept in the world.  More crazy than we can figure out.  More crazy than any fairy tale.  God wants to save us.  This will never make sense because it doesn’t fit into a human ‘world-view’ or understanding.  It is just something that we have to accept.  The reason isn’t because we ‘don’t suck that bad’ (see above).

God knows what ‘not-sucking’ looks like AND He doesn’t want us to suck

He can tell us, show us, and help us not suck.  This is exciting, because I don’t want to suck.  Romans 6:15.  The fact that I can’t change my ‘sucking’ is so freeing.  No matter how hard I try, what books I read, what self-control I can muster, what self-help theories I practice, I can’t stop.

This world sucks

Don’t let this come to you as a surprise.  This world is not fair, and has lots of bad, sucking people in it.  Gods world doesn’t suck and we will like it there (as long as we don’t want to suck… if we like sucking then we probably like our sucky world).

Our future doesn’t have to suck

Our future on this earth doesn’t have to suck.  With God’s guidance and help we can start NOT being sucking now.  God also has an awesome ‘world’ to take us too where we won’t even remember what suckiness is, only that we were saved from it, and that it…. sucks. 

This is exciting.  Basically the feeling that I can’t be a good enough parent, (or anything else in my life) is right.  That is a relieve.  The great thing is that, without doing anything to deserve it, God can and will help me.   God is all that matters and all I need to focus on.  Focused on Him the other stressors don’t make much of a difference.  Amen and Hallelujah!

 

God Doesn’t Accept You

August 29, 2011 in Simple Religion

I have been thinking on this the last few days and am excited to share it.  God doesn’t accept you.  Acceptance has been such a big thing lately.  We are taught to accept different personalities, different likes, different lifestyles and different religions.  All of these things are great and I teach them to my children, but with God, it is different.  He doesn’t accept us.

Acceptance itself is actually kind of a selfish and hands off concept.  Acceptance states that ‘I’ am OK with what you are doing and how it might affect ‘me’.  I might accept my children’s loud play, or my husband coming home late.  Both are annoying to me, but I can ‘accept’ it.  I can accept that the world is full of ideas and that I can’t be universally acknowledged as right all the time.

Acceptance can also be how it affects someone else.  I cannot accept slavery, famine or prejudice and I will do what I can in my power to stop those that cause it.  Still, acceptance is hands off, and centered on the affect of the person, not the person himself.   God is not like this.  God does not accept us.

God loves, and love is much more than acceptance.  Love is centered on the person.  Love says “Because I love you, you cannot go on like this”.  It says “Even though you don’t want to hear this, I love you and you need to know”.  Love says “I believe you are so much more than this”.  Love isn’t easy and sometimes it hurts.

Acceptance is much easier.  We can all ignore each others faults and tell each other what we want to hear.  Love isn’t like that.  Love is much deeper.

If God doesn’t accept does God expect us to be perfect?  Not at all!  Romans 5:8 says that ‘While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.’  He loved us when we were at our worst.  He will still love us if we screw up… bad.  His love isn’t based on anything we do or don’t do.  He just loves us, but that love does not overlooking our mistakes, it is hurt by them, affected by them and wanting to help us overcome them.

His love is patient and kind (1 Corinthians 13) and it is also perfect.  He wants us to each become like His Son.  He made us, knows what will make us happy and wants us to grow.  He loves us where we are, but won’t just ignore what we are.

This is the awsome gospel.  Looking at God we see the terrible sinners that we all are.  Why, when realizing the mess we are and the mess we in, would we just want acceptance?  God doesn’t accept us, he cares way to much.

That isn’t all.  It isn’t that hard, because love is a changing experience.  I hope everyone gets to experience love in this life.   Love from a parent, child, spouse, teacher, mentor, or even a dog.  Love is an amazing thing.  It is an incredible gift that changes both the giver and the receiver.  It offers a safe place to grow and be yourself.  If love from an imperfect human (or dog) can have that affect, how much more can the love of God change us.

So, God doesn’t accept you, and that is an amazing thing!  God wants for us, believes we can be, and helps us become more than we would ever think possible like His Son.

I Want More

August 9, 2011 in Simple Religion

I am not well traveled, but I have traveled enough to know that seeing everything doesn’t tame the wandering spirit.

I am not wealthy, but I have had the privilage of extra money to spend and know that money doesn’t satisfy want.

I am not fully educated but I have learned enough to know that learning all there is to learn still doesn’t bring full knowledge…. much less wisdom.

I am not liked by everyone, but I have had the benefit of some great relationships and know that being loved by all doesn’t bring full acceptance.

I am not well respected or famous and probably never will be, but I can imagin that fame doesn’t bring true sucess.

I (like to think I) am still young and have lots to discover and learn, but have learned enough to know that what I want isn’t found through traditional and common methods. 

I yearn for God who is everthing I wish for and more than I can imagin.  Can I prove it?  Have I found Him?  No, but I believe with all my heart that I will be much better off in my search for completness looking at and for Him than following traditional wisdom. 

I believe it, and yet, at the same time, it is so hard to live it.  I search for concrete, visable, and measurable success and God isn’t, and shouldn’t be, any of these things.  He can’t be caught, held, or owned.  If He could, he wouldn’t be God.

I believe humans are able to chase after one thing, and one thing alone.  When trying to chase many things at once, they all get away and we are left with nothing.  For me, I want that one thing to be Christ.  I want it in my head, I want it in my heart, but somehow I still end up lost and confused wandering after other things most of the time. 

Frusterated, I am thankful that while I try, often failing, to chase Him, He is always chasing me.  It is this hope and reasurance that makes it easier to keep trying again.  I am disapointed by how much I know I miss out on when I am distracted, but I feel blessed by how much he loves and forgives, and that I can be caught, held, and owned by Him.

I’m Saved, And It Has Made All The Difference-April 29, 2011

June 20, 2011 in Simple Religion

Back in college I visited a church in Ohio and the one of the first parts of the service was to look at your neighbor and ask if they were saved. This caught me off guard a bit. I have grown up knowing that we ‘can be saved’, ‘God wants us to be saved’, ‘Jesus died to save us’ but there was not much talk (or I don’t remember it) of assurance of salvation.With talks over the last few years and listening to other people I have seen that there is such a need for the assurance of salvation and so many people are scared of the judgment. So with my thoughts and growth over the last few years and especially discussion at church over the last few weeks I have been playing with these ideas for my blog all week. I hope they have cooked in my brain long enough to get them out on paper. I don’t believe I have everything figured out. My God is much to big to be understood at the age of 31 ……or by the human mind at all for that matter. This is just what I have learned and how I understand it.

The key points:
1. I am saved by faith, not by works.
2. I believe God wants me to have the assurance of salvation.
3. I am judged by my works.

Many times in life there is what looks like contradictions but the truth lies deeper, fully encompassing both sides. I have tried to figure this out with human illustrations but they are limited.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God not by works, so that no one can boast. Eph 2:8-9. There is nothing we do or can do that can save us. John 3:16 says it had to be God’s son. This is the theme of the Bible. God made man-man sinned-God worked out a way to pay the debt. What these texts (and many others say) is that the dept is paid. We could never pay it. We can’t even pay part of it. Salvation is an undeserved gift.

In talking at church during our Romans study we have often come to a man/woman relationship as a way to understand a relationship with God better. To use this analogy salvation isn’t entering into a dating relationship, instead it is entering into a marriage (a perfect/ideal one) The difference is this. While dating there is little commitment. There is a lot of acting, impressing, and fear of breakup. One tries to work on the relationship by showing their good side and playing all kinds of other emotionally stressful games. This kind of relationship has limited commitment, and little trust. This is how I see so many people viewing salvation. They say ‘God is ok with saving me as long as I keep doing what I should be doing and keep Him happy‘. On the other side ‘I will stick with God as long as it is fun, I am in love with Him, and as long as everything works out’. Unfortunately this leads to shallow religion.

Marriage is a different concept. God has offered me a relationship with himself that is 100% fully committed on his side. God will never leave. He created us and has never left for thousands of years. He also sent His Son/died for us to be able to be with Him. This is pretty heavy commitment. I can’t come close to understanding it. Not only that, He owns everything, He knows everything, He can do anything and He will always have time for me and to listen to me. This is the best relationship a person could have. So God is fully committed and He asks for us to be fully committed to Him. Marriage/Salvation is the point where I say ‘I want this relationship with you. I accept Your gift knowing full well that I don’t deserve it’. I am now fully married/saved. God will never leave me. ‘Divorce’ is an option, but I know He won’t every use it. ‘Divorce’ is my option, it is there for my freedom. I don’t believe in once saved always saved. (but that is another topic).

What does this ‘marriage’ give me? It gives me assurance. It gives me the assurance that allows me to be who I am, and the safety to be completely honest. It is in this place that I can feel free and be able to grow as a person, into a better person, into more of what God wants me to be. (kinda like old people that start looking alike because they have spent so much time together,, isn‘t it awesome that He helps us be more like Him).

Do we waver between saved and unsaved everyday? No, I don’t waver between being married and unmarried with my husband every day. Something happened a few weeks ago that I thought illustrated this a bit better. My husband asked me to return some tools for him that he had rented 2 Fridays ago. Saturday morning he went to put something in the trunk and there they were. I had completely forgot. He asked about it and I apologized. That was it, we rented the tools for 3 days instead of 1. I am not sure that now, 2 weeks later, he even remembers. If he asks me to do it again in a few months he isn’t going to bring it up again. It is done and forgotten.

Some people seem to have the problem with giving this level of commitment to God. It means trusting and obeying. This is sadly understandable because relationships are so often a disaster between humans. I have been learning to trust as I have been learning more about God. I am relieved and overjoyed to, unlike Kate, “love, honor, and obey’. God made me so he knows and understands me more than even I can, He also has proven that He loves me and because of this I can trust His leading even when I don’t understand/ With this understanding I better understand David when he talks about ’loving Your law’ (Ps 119 several places).

Ok, so how does this transfer and relate to judgment. Especially when we see judgment as being based on works in both Matt 25:31-46 and Rom 2:6-11. First off, judgment marks the end of the age, end of the world, end of the sin experiment and with it the end of parents watching their kids starve to death, genocide, sex trade, cancer, pain and death. I can’t wait for judgment. I hate seeing sin go on. Judgment is it-done-finished. Second, all are judged. People who say that those who are saved aren’t judged miss the point of the fact that judgment is separating the two groups. There is no middle and the act of being put into a group is being judged. Third, if we can really understand point #1, and we can be assured of our salvation, then judgment is the time for our inheritance (Matt 25) and for glory, honor and immortality (Rom 2).

I am from Canada and have had the privilege of dealing with immigration in the US since I moved here in 1998. A few illustrations from these experiences (and those of others) have helped me understand this judgment point better .

First off people have the assumption that once you marry an American it should be a easy ride to citizenship. Those going through the process know that it isn’t the case. Unfortunately there are those who get ‘green card’ marriages. (This is the same as people who believe they can say the right prayer and be granted ‘tickets’ to heaven.) This is a marriage just for the purpose of getting into the country, a business transaction not a love relationship. Because of these, great and law abiding souls, if I tell immigration that I am married they say “prove it“. Anyone can get a marriage certificate. Anyone can get a white dress and a tux and take happy pictures. What they want to see is proof that you have the relationship that goes with the certificate. They want you to have some collection of the following: (I am sure this isn’t a complete list) joint ownership of property, have active joint bank accounts, have joint utilities accounts, have kids etc. I see this as similar to judgment. None of these things make you married, they are proof that you are married. My husband and I don’t share a bank account because we want to be married, we do it because we are married. Same with everything else. (We have even ‘born fruit’ of 2 children.) We have both changed and grown as people because of our marriage and hopefully we will get the chance to grow old and look alike as well. These things all are a result of being married, not prerequisites.

Last Monday I got the call to come in for my naturalization ceremony. For the last several months I have been applying, interviewing, taking history and English tests and otherwise trying to convince the US government to claim me. However, last Monday all I had to do was prove my identity. This was the visible/legal court session that solidified the fact that I passed all the screening. I was told that I was approved to be a citizen before I showed up. (I am always scared of paper/computer screw ups but that doesn’t happen in Gods court ). If I didn’t show up for the legal completion I would not be a citizen. I had to show up, show my ID and get my certificate. That session gave me my citizenship but my approval came in the months leading up to it. It was, by far, the least stressful visit to an immigration building I have ever had. It was exciting. That’s the judgment.

I am saved and I am loved and it has made all the difference. It is all that matters.

–this is not an exhaustive look at salvation, I am not a theologian, it is just my blog where I record my thoughts. I don’t claim to be right or complete, just honest :)